Soul Warrior

Attempting to win over souls for God has come with its challenges. My commitment and passion for the Most High only grows within me over time. My relationship with God inspires me to want to tell other people about Him so they can experience their own relationship with Him. I no longer concern myself with other people’s opinion of my faith because I know exactly what my faith has brought me through and how powerful my faith is.

I do not recall a moment where I felt no control over my actions. While mind altering substances can be used as an excuse for momentary relapses of memory, I still had a choice on whether to consume those substances. Ecclesiastes says everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial. I can do whatever my heart desires, but the outcome would be the consequences. Will I choose the outcome where the consequences are favorable or unfavorable is the question. Blaming the devil is an excuse to justify our actions, but it is still our choice to follow the influences that have been set. I asked God, if Lucifer was so bad, why not just destroy him, God said, all my creations were created with a purpose, Lucifer is fulfilling a purpose. Like with most things, I asked God to explain. He said, Lucifer’s arrogance and pride caused him to question what I created. He wanted to prove that mankind was not worthy of my love, because of their imperfections and double mindedness. He is allowed to test and try the hearts of man in an attempt prove their unworthiness of my love. Although man is imperfect, Jesus’s death created a loophole so that by faith in him, they are made perfect.

It is easy to wish for your enemies to fall, what is not easy is not allowing yourself to feel joy in their destruction. When we suffer for Christ, we are promise a reward. When we live our lives in direct opposition of the purpose of Christ’s crucifixion, we are guilty as charged of condemning the one who died to redeem us from the clutches of our enemies. Recently, I was unjustly attacked online and sorrowfully asked God, “Why didn’t anyone defend me” He responded, “Nobody defended my son either. He allowed me to recall the story of Jesus’s trial. As he stood before Pontius Pilate, the people he healed, the lives he transformed, and even the disciples who knew him intimately, were too afraid to speak on behalf of an innocent man. They were too afraid to stand against a crowd of people chanting for his death.

I believe this is the ultimate betrayal. If one person betrays you, let the guilt fall on that one person. If many people betray you, the repercussion can destroy nations. It is easier to go with the crowd than to stand against the grain. I was told once by a friend, that evil prevails when good people do nothing. I feel it a privilege to be given access to the heart of Christ and consciousness of God. While God does not show favoritism, even though I secretly tell him I know I’m his favorite, he has given me the honor to serve at His command. No matter my station or circumstances in life, I will continue to serve my God, with pleasure.